Missing her…

It is a few minutes until Sabbath.  I just got off the phone with Heather.  I miss her!

Day of Rest…

Today I rose at 7 A.M. as normal lately, read from Steps to Christ with the Shrock family, ate breakfast and took a nap.  I am wiped out.  The steam detox that I had yesterday, and herb drink that I am taking twice a day of two different varieties, along with chopping wood left me with no energy today.  I spoke with Andrew and he said that I need to rest.  Plenty of water and rest is what I am to do today.  Miss Lena added prayer to that list : )

Will I End Up With A Broken Heart Again?

I shouldn’t have any expectations, and about most everything that is happening with my life at this time I have no expected outcome in mind.  But in all actuality, I expect to have my heart broken again.

I think too much!

Detox…

This morning I was to start my detoxification with Andrew.  About 9 A.M. I walked through the horse pasture over to Andrew and Denise’s house.  They were on the way to Spokane with their four kids.  Denise asked me if I wanted to drive and I agreed.  She then stayed home and took care of other things while Andrew, the kids and I went to Spokane to get capsules and herbs for his practice.  When we got back I helped Andrew by chopping up about a cord of wood that needed to be split.  We then ate a late lunch which was excellent.  After which I was given my first detoxification.  I first put my feet in super hot water, wrapped myself in a sheet, then a shower curtain, then a blanket, then another shower curtain.  I sat in a chair with the hot steam from the five gallon bucket of water coming up all around me and proceeded to sweat profusely for twenty minutes.  I have never sweat so much in my life.

Back at the Shrock’s…

After staying in Chewelah for a day, last night Heather brought me out to the church with her, Dave and Lilly for prayer meeting.  I then went home with the Shrock’s again.  I brought with me more clean cloths, my laptop, flashlights and a few other misc. things.

Today after breakfast, Eli asked me to start the project of working with Dean Farrell’s sermon.  After working through several codex problems on my laptop, and still not being able to get the audio to come out right, I decided to switch to a machine that is not Vista 64-bit.  I will install Premiere onto Moses’s machine later today.

While one of the couple of times that my computer was diligently working on converting this video, I went out into the field where Moses was bailing hay with a horse drawn bailer.  I stayed out there for more than an hour helping him by picking up the hay that had been missed and putting it into the rows that he had still to bail.  My arms didn’t like the experience and are all broke out in a red rash, but I enjoyed the experience, and have a humbled opinion of the Amish way of life.

On a different note, I have made quite a few changes to my life lately.  I have quit smoking cigarettes and I have become clean.  I have also pretty much cut out all animal products from my diet becoming vegetarian or even vegan.  I could say that I have not smoked a cigarette for a week and a half.  I could also say that I have been clean for over three weeks now.  But I have decided that instead of this type of thinking I am just going to say this: I am a non-smoker and that I don’t use.  Why think of and bring to memory my past weaknesses?  This is not just about becoming clean, about becoming free from these worldly addictions.  This is about the realization of sin and about the forgiveness of those sins.  But most importantly this is about my coming back to Christ.

The day has come to an end.  I am beet!  I got out in the field with Moses again this evening, this time with Chris.  Moses had finished bailing all the hay earlier.  We loaded up 28 bails of hay and delivered them.  We then came back and loaded up the rest of the bails in the two fields in order to let the horses back into the fields.  There were another 96 bails.

Well, it is late.  I am going to finish watching the movie “Super-Size Me” and then get to bed.  G’ night.

Faith and Current Requirements…

Faith and Current Requirements…
09/04/2008

Heather is filled with the spirit of Jesus.  I have been witness to this over and over recently.  I am working on my faith, yet her faith is abundant and overflowing.   I am here at the Shrock’s by the will of the Lord, out of blind faith. 

I came to Heather several weeks ago knowing that I could not become clean on my own.  She prayed for me, asking the Lord what she could do for me, what I should do.  Over and over the Lord answered her prayer saying that I will go to the Shrock’s.  Christopher was still with me for one more week before he was to go back to his mother’s in Oregon.  So in order to remove myself from all temptation, Heather allowed me to stay with her and Lilly for this week.  Christopher stayed also for several days.  During this time I watched Lilly while Heather was on call.  I am very grateful that she gave me this opportunity.

Nearly two weeks ago I told Heather my three current goals.
These goals were:

1. Get clean
2. Get closer to the Lord
3. Get closer to Heather

I know now that I cannot do this without the Lord’s help.  I cannot withstand the temptations that the devil has been throwing at me on my own.  I have seen the devil’s increased efforts to hinder my progress, his temptations are everywhere.  The Lord was right when he told Heather that I needed to come here to the Shrock home.  This is a house of the Lord and I am safer from the temptations of the devil here.  This is a place where I can come back to the Lord, where I can detoxify my system of all the poisons that I have been filling my body with over the past 10 or more years.

I have faith in the Lord, faith in Jesus Christ.  I have faith in me.  I am blessed, and remembered in so many prayers.  I will be ok!